Black Dog Blog

I'm having one of those "everyone's stupid but me" moments. And feeling guilty about it.

Stupid, right? I should either cut them some slack or mentally denigrate them without any qualms.

To elaborate, then. Some of the work output by my colleagues is making me (seriously) want to cry. Not that it's anything horrible, but they've just missed the point completely. And compared to my sections, in which I carefully thought out every item – should this, logically, be a 'page two' or a different article altogether? – it's… it just looks… slapdash.

No wonder I took so much longer over my bits. I was stressing about being useless, but no, it was conscientiousness. I gave every single item individual care and attention. They fit carefully to, ok, my own interpretation of the point of the site's structure, but my interpretation is damn close to the developers' because I understood and internalised what they were doing with the design.

I'm tempted to go in and cut huge swathes of order through this mess. But I mustn't! I've got in trouble for independently fixing things before, even though they accepted the things in question needed to be fixed. I just should've asked first.

I don't know how to ask without sounding like a complete asshole, though. I will ask, because I don't leave things alone when I can see improvements, and then it's up to the boss.

Sucks, though, that the thing I've got in trouble for is my eagerness and liking for my job. I've got so much enthusiasm and it's tearing itself to pieces for want of an outlet.

(some time later:) I did email the boss, trying to be delicate and polite. I'm not good at either of these things. I'm going to will myself to stop fretting now and post this entry. :)